youknowyourebritishwhen:

I want to make a post about this, but airing my past to 27,000 people is not something I take lightly, so I will delete this in a minute. I am not talking on behalf of the other admins, only myself.

I’m an adult now by law, but throughout my childhood and teenage years, for some reasons I can explain and for other I can’t, I hurt myself repeatedly. I have scars all over my arms, legs, stomach and other places. Not small, barely noticeable ones, big, raised ugly ones. I have been in and out of therapies for years, I have been on medication and I am still on medication and I’m going through CBT therapy.

Until last year, I never even wore short sleeves around my family, even though they accepted my problems and have tried everyday to help me get through them and I can never thank them enough for being so loving, caring and forgiving. I’ve lost friends, but the real ones have stuck by me. I’m stronger because of all the people that have supported me, but I’m never going to be 100%.

Now I sometimes take my cardigans and jackets off in class, round friends houses and I always wear short sleeves around my family. I’m finally gaining some confidence. I still won’t wear certain clothes, even around my family, but I’m working on it day by day.

I can never, ever condone self-harm, although I can understand what may be going through a persons mind when they do so. What I will NEVER understand though is promoting self injury to anyone. I will never agree with that and I will ALWAYS be against it.

My scars will always make me stick out from a crowd. They will always bring back horrible memories and they will always be reminders of how I used to be. I’m always living in fear I’ll relapse into that. I hate them, but I have to live with them. I never want anyone to have to live like this for the rest of their lives.

Blogs that promote self-harm may not realise the damage they could be doing. So to everybody who’s saying that it’s a bad idea, TUMBLR IS NOT TELLING YOU YOU CANNOT BLOG ABOUT YOUR OWN EXPERIENCES, THEY ARE TRYING TO PROTECT PEOPLE, NOT TAKE AWAY THEIR RIGHT TO TALK ABOUT THESE SUBJECTS.

I have to go now. My brother’s just been admitted to hospital, so I have to go have fun with that. Like I said, this will be deleted in a few minutes. I just wanted to say something for myself.